so let me slip away

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

{2:37 AM}

There's alot of things i wanna say.
But Im not sure if Im ready.

Monday, July 13, 2009

Wish me luck!{12:51 AM}

im starting work in 101/2 time!!

wish me many2 luck!

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Second chance?{3:32 AM}

looking at this, you're still looking good as ever. making me miss you even more. i was reading something about committing in relationships. a case where it was similar to ours. except that the story had an happy ending but not ours. the guy was afraid to fall in love and wasn't ready to be in a r/s. there was always a 3 weeks intervals before they will meet again. but knowing that the girl has the hots for him, he made sacrifices and took a risk in falling in love. sweet aye?

can you imagine yourself doing that? will you be willing to? but the thing that has to change now is the frequency that we contact each other now. im always waiting for you to be online after 12am but somehow the timing is always wrong. its either i caught you too late which at the time you were about to logout or it would be me going out in the middle of the night when you had just login.

im starting work on monday. are we able to make time from our busy schedule for a once in a blue moon meetup? im waiting for the day where i could see you standing right before my eyes. longing to hold you but i guess its all fantasies.

im glad to know you're doing well and having fun with your friends. enjoy puas-puas okayy before you go to NS.=))

ps: sorry about the picture. i kinda stole it.

Friday, July 10, 2009

Its been awhile now.{2:27 AM}

its been too quiet without you around. i've always wake up with you in mind, missing you so much. but i guess i still can't change the fact that you want us to stay as friends. even so, does the change have to be so drastic? why can't we still be like before? now, i don't even text you or even talk to you. even when we chat online, its so awkward. why HS? why the change? did you regret about everything that had happened between us? were you ashamed being seen with me? and im hoping for a miracle though i know its impossible.honestly, i still thinks of you every single day.maybe i shld forget you altogether? but i can't HS, i just can't. i've been too dependent on you in my life. for you to go just go MIA so suddenly, left an impact on me.

Monday, July 6, 2009

Did you regret?{4:38 AM}

i guess its the end?

me not being in your top friends says alot.

tell me, are you regretting everything that had ever happened?

you said you will NOT dump me but i guess you're taking back your words.

i've believed everything that you're said.

i thought you could the one to change all the doubts that i have.

but in reality, you're just the same as the rest.

you know how i feel towards all this but yet you don't care.

even if things doesnt work out, you cann tell me.

you can't just keep quiet, not reply my texts and just leave me hanging.

what happened to the things that you had said?

its ALL lies, sweet talks?

it has always been pretend right from the start isn't it?

you had planned it all along didnt you?

im disappointed!

Sunday, July 5, 2009

{3:47 PM}

im trying to stop myself from text-ing you today. its hard but im still surviving. i seriously think i don't know you at all now. if i don't text you, you wouldn''t be text-ing me too right? i don't want things to be this way but you're making things happen this way.

im heading out to meet the cliques. you're prolly otw to your training. take care love. ILY, IMY.

Friday, July 3, 2009

MSN convo.{3:08 PM}

i was reading our history in our MSN convo and it actually brought a smile on my face. i remember the days and wished i could have those times again. it has always been you who initiated everything from the start. to asking me to come down to your games continuously, to trading numbers and meeting up.

you have been oh-so-sweet right from the start. you kept defending yourself that NOT all soccer players are the same. do you remember all this HS?

it hurt me a bit that you could spare time with your friend including watching movie with her. but you couldn't do that for me? and i dun tink you're home yet also. its been 2 days straight that i text-ed you without replying like how you used to. is it because of what we've talked about that you're like this? its like i don't know you anymore HS.

yes, im hurt but let's not focus on that aye? you asked me to give you time and im giving it to you. but im not sure if you're using the time to think about this. are you?

do you know the one thing im badly waiting for right now? it's to be yours before you're enlisted. impossible i believe?

im seriously torn in what to do HS.